Dietrich Bonhoeffer went to America for the second time in his life as Hitler was dramatically ramping up his takeover of Europe. Many respected people in his life were encouraging him to leave Germany for his own safety, and his heart was conflicted with problematic decisions. When arrived, he realized it was a mistake and that he needed to get back to Germany as quickly as possible. This quote from him illuminates the complexities of the heart and the solution to cutting through the fog. I find this extremely helpful.
“If only the doubts about my own course had been overcome. One’s own searching into the depths of one’s heart which is nevertheless unfathomable- ‘He knows the secrets of the heart.’ When the confusion of accusations and excuses, of desires and fears, makes everything with us so obscure, he sees quite clearly into all our secrets. And at the heart of them all he finds a name which he himself has inscribed: Jesus Christ. So too one day we shall see quite clearly into the depths of the divine heart and there we shall then be able to read, no, to see, a name: Jesus Christ. So we would celebrate Sunday. One day we shall know and see what today we believe; one day we shall hold a service together in eternity.”
The beginning and the end, O Lord are thine; The span between, life, was mine.
I wandered in the darkness and did not discover myself; With thee O Lord, is clarity, and light is thy house.
A Short time only, and all is done; Then the whole struggle dies away to nothing.
Then I will refresh myself by the waters of life, And will talk with Jesus for ever and ever.